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How the Scorpio Moon goes Mad

The Scorpio wants to feel for the sake of feeling. The feeling is mistaken for truth when in fact, truth is to be found when the waves of emotions die down.

Truth is within you if you could only see the magnificent beauty of your own soul, instead of the endless current of moods you live in, If only…But you crave emotion and it is the only way you know to be alive. Is being alive the same as living?  the answer is no. If this resonated with you at all then continue reading and If not please excuse this moody post.

“Sensitive people usually love deeply and hate deeply. They don’t know any other way to live than by extremes because their emotional thermostat is broken.”
― Shannon L. Adler

Today I want to talk about the complicated emotional makeup of the Moon in Scorpio. This is especially relevant as this placement is all about the experience of emotions in life. I want to write to you- my Moon in Scorpio dear person, as perhaps this might be helpful for you. I know you don’t shy away from gruesome images, hard truths and painful memories. So I trust you will forgive my harshness. Let’s face it, you are a little mad by nature or at least by nurture. Whatever the case, you are prone to at least a few problems which cause you to experience inner turmoil. The minor version of your crazy is that of the obsessive thinker- you never let a thought or idea go once in enters your head, do you? You are prone to attach your thoughts to events in your life and reimagine them over and over. Naturally you are prone various nervous break downs and insomnia. The less minor version of your crazy is all about waves, waves of ups and downs that can make the latest thriller seem tame as a puppy. Something along the lines of a bipolar disorder. You feel deeply they tell you- sure, but it just happens you feel deeply in cycles of joy and desperation. It is not a flat line of depth you experience but a storm that is within you- always.

There is nothing very wrong with you, in fact you are the most gifted individual in terms of how experienced you are in all range of feeling and knowing. But…lets ask a simple question? why are you feeling at all? What is it that you really feel?

Imagine you are sitting in your living room in a comfy chair and a commercial comes up on TV. Something about it makes you feel things. Is that emotion real? Probably not you will say, it was manipulated to make you buy stuff. You are right about that one. The question is what are you buying into every day? The secret truth is you are buying into you Scorpio Moon, the master of emotional manipulation. Thats why you feel bad and thats why things are so wrong. all the F***** time. You were born with the Moon in Scorpio, you are unique! You were born to feel and that is what you truly desire. To reach the depth of human experience and find out the truth. Yes you see- you want to feel because you want to find out truth. But we all know emotions can lie, don’t we? Are feelings really the way to the light? Perhaps for you they are. But not so fast dear…You are going mad. You are obsessed, depressed, sad, lonely, alone, angry. Why does that happen when all you wanted was to feel?

The answer is boring but true. You have a built-in mechanism (Moon) that is able to create emotion out of thin air. You have this need for feeling that isn’t satisfied with daily existence. Anyone else feels things because of events in their life.

They see a tiger? They feel fear. You don’t see a tiger and so you imagine a big scary tiger until you feel scared for you life. Thats is because your true secret fear is that of not feeling- of being empty. That would mean you are dead. Being alive for you is feeling and any moment without it must be the end. So you have this gift, this secret ability to fuel and create feelings for the sake of every breath you take. This is a gift- when it isn’t torturing you to bits. Sadly, for most of you Scorpio Moon’s this ability isn’t used for the creation of amazing art or for saving the world with you convictions. I can think of famous ones who did just that. Instead, you keep needing stimuli within you (it is not something you show) and you self-destruct. It is human nature to find negative emotions and thoughts easy to conjure and maintain. So…that is what happens when you are young. You seek emotions and when it isn’t there you create it while convincing yourself it is real and caused by X or Y.

You are not crazy, you are just walking around with this lava that is about to burn you. I beg you to either admit that you have needs to truth and love and to seek them outside of your own twisted mind, or to at least find release and expression. 

Is what you feel caused by an outward event? Is it caused by the memories of the past? 

What matters for you is to learn a few things before you can shine like the diamond you are. 

First, learn to live in the present and to ride its current that will take you into a health future. Second, learn the usefulness of boundaries so as to differentiate your feelings from the world- you are an empath after all. Third, face your biggest fear- which is fear itself. Last, most important is learn you mission to uncover truth which you can through honest emotions not conjured by artificial means. Be it addictions, relationships or your own glorious mind. You devil. 

Love your Venus: part 1

Note: If you have more than two planets in a sign or house then perhaps reading the Venus for that would be more accurate as well as the actual placement.

Venus is so important in your chart, I really can’t stress this enough. What is Venus in your chart?  You probably think about Venus as being the planet of love, beauty and money- and you are right. But in human development Venus is a little more than that. When you are born you are born as your Sun sign- you ego, your father and your true self. Your Moon is your home and mother, your nurturing and your emotional learning in childhood. Mercury is our skill set in later years- when you learn to speak and make connections with others that are called friendships.   All this is your base- what made you who you are very early in life. Venus is the love you are able to give and receive based on all the other experiences and connections you have had- because Venus rules your values  and they developed as a result of the nurturing from parents ,friends ,brothers sisters and the community and country at large. There are only 12 signs for your Venus to reside, so what makes your Venus your own is so much more:  The house and the aspects and the whole chart have to be taken into consideration. Nevertheless, here is a simple but true break down of Venus placements according to what makes you feel good and what can help you when you don’t feel love.

Venus in Aries:  Love needs to be open, based on honesty and without heavy restrictions. Your learned to give others affection and physical connection without limits. You are very warm and giving without thought and because of that you expect others to give the same in return. They may have called you selfish for wanting to get your own way, never realizing you are more than happy to return affection in return. Like a child you play with fire and you get burned, so you must learn that not everyone is worthy of you. You grow up and develop pride that hides behind it the hurt and burns of your past. To heal you must let go and open tis flood of passion to the world- your will suffer less being able to be yourself.

Venus in Taurus: Your love needs to be real, something that cannot be taken away from you. Empty promises force you to turn cold to others. You are fully capable of loving yourself as you are in the flesh- misgivings, shortcomings and sensual cravings. You can offer the same gift to others- not unconditional love but accepting love. You learned that your touch is healing magic, that friends run to you for sweet comfort and that the simple things in life can save a heart from breaking. You give your body and only then your soul and when you don you don’t know how to take it back. If you are forced to take your broken heart from another- you will feel empty and in return would try to fill up the space with sensual comfort. But yours is a loving nature and living without expressing it isn’t worth it at all for you true values are based on love.

Venus in Gemini: Your love is learned through mirroring others, if they were good mirrors in childhood then you would be the easy- going of them all, and if not then you will choose to go it alone.  In fact, you are easy going either way- just not happy. Your true need is that of a partner in crime, always someone to be there for you. That someone can be of any age, race or gender but they must treat you with acceptance.  Through them you will learn your gifts of fun and self-expression, until you are older. When you are older this need would turn into a passion and secret quest: to find your soulmate. At heart you are a romantic, and your soulmate is always right around the corner. To be happy you should not make promises you can’t keep. Don’t love those who ask that of you for that would be your defeat. Instead, live day by day, inventing your soulmate in your dreams and finding pieces of this ideal friend in your reality.

Venus in Cancer: Your love is endless; you have the true ability to lose yourself in the emotion of love. You only knew this type of love towards either in childhood or before you were born and either way it’s not a very secure knowing. Therefore, you feel secure in your emotions only when you give them to others- you can trust yourself but not others. Learning to receive caring and nurture from others is your early task. You may shy away from it in many ways, in private you wonder why love like yours cannot be found.  It can be of course. but only if you learn that you are strong. Stronger than others for you love is endless and can survive anything. In early adulthood you masked your emotions in order to get by perhaps by staying a child and not growing up, perhaps by growing up too fast. Your fear is all that is stopping you and once you let go- your ability to give and receive love is beyond compare.

Venus in Leo: Love is for those who are worth it, is what you have learned. One must win love before they have any entitlement for it. And so you made sure as a child that you are worth it, that you are the best- and only then were you allowed to enjoy others affection. For you love is always conditional and dangerous. Being loved unconditionally by someone who doesn’t recognize your worth, is the outmost of failures- you rather have no love at all. And so you develop your own fantasy:  where someone wins your heart. They must slay the dragon and kill the witch, and of course you are the prize.  When this does not happen, you are secretly sure this is your fault- that you are not good enough. If you only open your eyes you will see how everyone in your path is more than ready to slay the dragon- they just think they are not good enough for you.  Love is drama and song for you. Your greatest gift is turning the grayest of stories into a fairytale- by making anyone feel like they are the best.

Venus in Virgo: You don’t need much, just a little of that one very particular something, right? When you were young affection wasn’t given easily. Not that you weren’t loved but circumstances may have required various rules and limits on that affection. As you grew up you developed you system of right and wrong times to express love- probably as a reaction to you upbringing and sometimes in an opposite direction. If affection was cold, you may have no boundaries at all and if you were smothered then you set strict lines in your relationships.  As a result you allow yourself to express love through service or in a situation that has its own rules of the game: working relations, marriage and yes even affairs that have their own rules, don’t they?  For you to find true love and be happy you must respect your partner and the values they hold and you must know they need you.  You may fall into the trap of analyzing until all emotion is gone- for you must know it is the right time for you to open your heart and how will you know this if not through the mind?  But nevertheless you will keep to the rules, loyally giving more and more- even if no respect or love is received.  For you to be happy you must make your number one rule that of receiving it in return.

Venus in Libra: Love is about harmony. For you it is the space where balance is reached and conclusions stay in place. You are always in two places at once, trying to decide what road to choose next. Your heart loves everyone without reserve and yet you realize early on that this state of affairs isn’t ok with other people.  They ask you to choose; maybe it was your family maybe just life. You had to make a choice you could not make and so you never did.  You grew up, and made the easy choice- love what is beautiful for beautiful is always good. Beauty was the answer for the unbalance between mind, body and heart. Your hate of conflict meant you would seek where you belong- that group that would not require you to make difficult choices and that would be easily affectionate towards you.  As you grow up, this isn’t going to be enough. You will seek partners that challenge you, forcing you to develop a strong sense of individual identity. When that happens, you will find a partner in the true sense of the word. Someone who is amazing, who will join you according to your beliefs and goals in life, maybe an intellectual kind of love? For the best analogy for you kind is that ancient Greek idea where from physical love you learn to know the spiritual kind.

Venus in Scorpio: Your love isn’t open for all to see, only for the privileged.  When very young you were much protected, some sad truth was concealed from you. You learned that nothing is as it seems- including love. Being the way you are you promised yourself to protect others from the frightening emotions that you have, emotions born from the disclosure of the difficult truth, that same one that was concealed from you by your caregivers. Love in your heart wasn’t something you could express and so you let it grow within, becoming deeper and deeper- more complicated as the years went by.

By the time you grew up all you knew was that it wasn’t simple for you to become involved with people.  Nevertheless you wanted to protect and fight for them, your early romantic involvement may have been with someone weaker or in need of your help. That someone may not have been able to let you have your own weak spots and so it ended. You perceived this as betrayal and closed off your brave heart. You came into your power, not much later and learned that sex is your tool for expressing the depth, the void the need. And yet you wanted something pure and true, something that is based on deep trust that needs not words. Secret affaires are just a mockery of that, but it takes time to figure out.  I you do figure it out- yours if the kind of love where one is ready to die for the other.

Uranus Square Mercury: The Incomplete Outsider

This post is completely unplanned for today, which isn’t surprising considering it is about the change causing Uranus. I was really going more towards Pluto, Scorpio and the like for my next subject…But ok, what Uranus wants Uranus gets- or maybe not?

Recently I was doing a reading for a person online that had this aspect and was asking for help dealing with it. The problem in their own words was not that they feel others don’t get them and that the whole world in fact completely misunderstands them. In traditional Astrology this aspect in a person’s chart is bad news.

It promises they will have a “scattered mind” a mess in the head really. But maybe you don’t know this but I’m a positive Astrologer- I use chart reading the way a therapist would (if they were not a therapist but an Astrologer) and I like offering practical advice more than delivering bad news to people.Anyway, to find a solution to this person’s problem or to yours if you have any Uranus problems in your chart, I needed to understand what the problem was. Uranus is a symbol of genius, electricity, Frankenstein, rebellion, change and anything new and technological.

It is the planet of our age- the age of Aquarius and also of your computer breaking down. Uranus is ruled by Aquarius and in many ways is kind of like Saturn that co-ruler of this sign for it likes to make life hard for you when it transits.

Aquarius is also the sign of fame and it has a big ego, without this ego no one would dare and try anything. Try to be innovative or try to become Elvis Presley (who had this aspect). But let’s face it: You are not Elvis or Madonna and Uranus squaring your Mercury is only resulting in issues. The issue being that you can’t express your thoughts to the world without feeling like an outsider. People don’t get you- or so you think. Part of that is that you don’t get yourself until you express this energy, this chain of crazy thoughts and ideas. But Uranus likes change so what happens is that the second you do express yourself- it doesn’t matter. You already don’t think it’s true and you feel that you must do or say something to make others contradict you!

You do this and they act like they don’t understand you and this keep the dangerous cycle going. The only reason this keep on happening is because your sense of self is so tied up to being right- to the big ego. You can’t stand to be wrong and you take the blame and self-punish. The punishment is being the outcast, the outsider, the rebel, the crazy girl or guy.

I think this isn’t fair to anyone and I want to suggest it doesn’t have to be so. What you have is Uranus in your chart and that equals an energy that is best used on a big scale. You have so much to offer to the world if you only knew.  Your thoughts that you can’t express- they are not always right but they always have the right to exist. That is the truth and the second you realize that then you will not be afraid to express your mind to the world without causing a conflict with it. This is the truth and the one that can save you.

My best advice to you is to always say what you think but without attaching ego to it. Let your crazy out but without attaching your sense of self to it. To make it easy for you, I would suggest choosing an 11th house setting: A group with a cause. When you speak for the cause then you don’t care if you are right or wrong.You are not an outsider anymore and you are not alone in what you say. Find this platform and speak up- the world would thank you for that.

How Astrology Can Make Your Life Better

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Astrology can make your life better if used in the right way. I stand behind that completely and I find it to be true.This blog has been a very simple and light drawing of astrology, simply because is very hard to go in depth in such a format and without any “real’ person in front of you. And because its more fun to talk about music and pop stars, isn’t it?

Astrology is a combination of science and intuition and only a good balance between the two gives the best results. I have no interest in proving astrology is real, I think its  a waste of time. At most I’ll say it’s a set of symbolic tools to explain a psychological profile of a person. Real astrology is very complicated and I’m still learning everyday and will keep learning all my life. But what I do know is it can make things better for a person. Why? Because self understanding leads to growth. When you understand the worst and the best about yourself and others then you can grow and change. It’s not always pleasant to view your shadow, but its necessary if you want to avoid the same traps over and over in your life. Self understanding leads to compassion! You can forgive yourself and others  more easily. You understand that everyone has different needs. Instead of liking or disliking others you try to see how they can become more happy and fulfilled.

Isn’t that beautiful? To see how we all are different and one and the same? This doesn’t mean there is no evil in the world or in people. But that evil can be avoided and turned into good. The worst impulse in a person can be their strongest point.  The pain can be a source of creativity, love and giving. You can see this in the aspects of any natal chart. The trine which is the easy “good'” aspect between planets doesn’t lead anywhere, why change that which is good? But the Square that creates drama, pain and difficulty can show where a person will succeed most later in life! You see how delicate and amazing astrology can be?

And because I’m only a person, one among many. I see and understand astrology in my own way and others see it differently. Astrology is like life there is no one simple answer but instead an endless amount of questions and answers that one can research all their lives. I can add my own view where happiness, compassion, love play a big part, I want others to be happy. But most of all I want them become brave and face themselves and find real freedom.

So read you birth chart. Study it as if you are looking in a mirror and you will be amazed at what you see. Unlike a mirror you natal chart is going to show you more than your physical beauty. You will be able to look deep inside and see something that is beyond. Beyond the face you show family and friends and beyond your hardships, towards truth and happiness.